“I came to Panchakarma with the (unconscious) expectation to finally change or get rid of some of the negative traits, voices and beliefs, which keep undermining me again and again. What happened instead was something completely different and wondrous. Somewhere along the line I realized on a deep level that I could acknowledge and accept all of those monsters that I perceived as wrong and wanted to change. I found myself not only embracing them but being thankful to let them be. With the acknowledgement of their place, I experienced that I have place, feeling grounded in presence like I have never felt before. A basic simple sense of presence and with it came utter contentment of just being here.

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During the first days of taking the ghee I connected with my body more consciously and became aware of how dry, brittle and hard my tissues had become. Slowly, slowly I could feel them softening deeper and deeper into the core until my whole body felt thoroughly open, alive and infused with nourishment. Consequently I found myself to be utterly content, whole and balanced. And miraculously even some of my early childhood deprivations got healed along the way. My sensitivity and body awareness naturally opened in the process enabling me to access memories that where stored in my body/mind and connect with the healing as it was happening. All in all I experienced a huge clearing, opening the way for the life’s force to flow freely and allowing for nature to be.

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The most tangible result: my insomnia of 25 years, which was rooted in a deep imbalance, has been healed in the process.”

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– Cecile, France –

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“Panchakarma allowed me to see my thought patterns and patterns of behavior more clearly. The way I loop in the same thoughts over and over again. It brought out more of my physical and mental imbalances so that they could be addressed, as there was no way of running away from them. I was confronted by my long years of chronic fatigue, lack of energy, headaches, insomnia and deep physical pain. Having been brought to the surface I could face them clearly.

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Having Umā Inder there meant that I had some one who knew me. In the past I have felt misunderstood or not understood enough by some doctors. Umā is someone who has the context for who I am and my experiences of kundalini energy. Her knowledge and experiences were transmitted to me in a way similar to what has happened in and out of class. What was spoken became real. Through conversations with Umā there was an opening of greater and greater possibilities of what panchakarma can be for a yogi, not what it is for the average person. This put panchakarma in a whole new light. There was direct transmission and this meant that doors opened to a whole other world. That an enema could be blissful was inconceivable to me. Experiencing pain and bliss at the same time became a reality. That’s what I felt as I lay on that hard wooden table and I laughed as my body pulsated lightly, this smooth warmth flowing through me. Realizing that bliss does underly everything. That pain is a state which does pass. The magic unfolded. It was real magic.”

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– Rani, India –

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If I had to use one word to describe my experience of Panchakarma with Umā I would say: self love. This was for me a process of revealing myself to see me, to listen to me, to love me.
I realized how sensitive the human body in its essence is, and the importance of honoring that sensitivity. When healthy, the whole life changes. It becomes a new world, I started to relate to nature, to myself, to food, to work, from a place of self Love. I could feel how a lot of fears started to dissolve once I gained health. I learned the benefit of slowing everything down and aligning to natural rhythms. I learned the benefit of gaining myself the time to be taken care of, to be nurtured, to heal. Something in the western world I feel doesn’t exist: time to gain time.

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Umā gave every step of the process a meaning, it all has a purpose, a motive, a place. This made my whole experience of Panchakarma be rather than just a detox, a spiritual practice. Everyday I felt I was nurturing not only my body but my soul. This process is now my constant reminder that choosing health is choosing God.
Choosing health is choosing Me.
I am grateful for this life.

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– Banchitta, México –

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